Ch-ch-ch-Changes!

Hullo! It's been a while. More than a year, actually, but I'm pretty sure that nobody read this blog to begin with so that's okay. It was always more for me than for other people. I wandered off because I had things going on, and when I have things going on my first instinct is to push people away completely. People are nice every once in a while, but interacting with anyone causes me stress, which was the last thing I needed for a very long time. But now I'm back, and I've changed some things. I shall use bullet points to list them.

• Spiffy new layout! :D It's all nice and streamlined, and a pretty color of blue, and the text looks like handwriting. How cool is that? Not my handwriting of course. I write in illegibly swirly cursive.
• New profile icon! My old one was a doodle of myself with mouse ears, which only made sense if you knew my high school nickname. No one has used it since, and so I have replaced the doodle with a pretty flower! No joke, I did an image search for "pretty flower". That's what I got.

Yeah. Two bullet points. That's how I roll. I have obviously changed too in the last year, but I won't bother listing the ways. Just suffice to say that I will (hopefully) not write as if I'm hyped up on sugar anymore and the things I write about will be more interesting than being surprised that it snowed (in the middle of New York! Go figure!). There are a few things of note, though, and I'll use more bullet points for those.

• I no longer live in New York. No, I didn't graduate. I was a semester away from my two year art degree, but everything I didn't like about being there hit me all at once. My professors formed cliques that they kept students locked into ("You want to take Professor C instead of B, D, or E? Too bad! I'm not friends with them"), the head of the art department seemed determined to keep me around for no real reason, I HATED having five roommates at once, not to mention the constant partying and loud music they insisted on, and the weather was depressing. I didn't drop out of school, I'm just going to a tech school at home instead.
• I'm switching majors! Yes, I know. One semester away from an art degree, but you know what? I'm not going to put myself through three more months of that stress. It isn't worth it. It was tearing me apart and no degree is worth sacrificing my mental stability. I'll probably do something along the lines of marketing or entrepreneurship or something. I have a skill that I can work with and that I have already seen a demand for. More to the point, it makes me happy. More on that later.
• Oh, let's see...I have an Xbox, I live with my parents, I don't want to live with my parents, I had my wisdom teeth removed, I need braces, my dog died, I got a job, I hate my job, I intend to quit my job because I'm being paid under the table, I have 64 different colors of nail polish, I made a Medieval kingdom in The Sims 2, I want Skyrim (wantwantwant), grain makes me feel sick, I have a tan because I went to the pool, my brother gave me his old fountain pen because he doesn't use it, my dad turned me into an Alien fan, I turned him into a Mass Effect fan, my brother likes watching sci fi (when the heck did that happen?), I learned to cook, I'm actually pretty good at cooking, I bought a mint plant that makes my room smell nice, etc. My life is all interesting and whatnot. Did I cover everything?

Alright, so what made me go back and revive a blog that nobody reads? Honestly, I really hate using Facebook and Twitter. First of all, I like to explain things and tell stories and neither of those let me do that, and secondly everybody I know uses Facebook. That's great for when I want to see if anyone has something interesting going on, but frankly most of the time I don't want everyone I know to know everything I've done lately. I like privacy and personal space. I do not want my idiot ex boyfriend from high school commenting on my new recipe for brussels sprouts. It's unnecessary and it makes me uncomfortable. People cannot plug in my name and automatically find this blog, at least not as easily as they can with Facebook. Heck, most people don't even know I have a blog, which I am perfectly content with. With this, I can post an interesting story or something that's been on my mind for a while and not worry about someone I forgot I knew saying "Absolutely! This is true because (insert sappy Bible quote)." I can choose who looks at this. Either very close friends or total strangers who stumble onto it through google. The former I suppose could be honored that I want to share my boring life stories with them. The latter I don't much care either way about because they don't know who I am. I guess they think I'm interesting? Hurrah?

Anyway, there's my rant. I'm back. Not much else to say.

Here comes the sun! (do do doo do)

After a blurry, grey, and mostly uneventful semester, it is finally sunny! Before last week it rained for about 20 days straight. And then there was SUN. And it was WARM. And you could tell just by looking at the people because everybody was like "OMIGOSHALIGHTSOURCE!" and I was like "SQUEEHUZZAHALIGHTSOURCE!" and all the plants were like "Hooray!" and so they're green now. Except for the flowers. They come in other colors. And speaking of flowers, a random field of dandelions decided to spring up within view of my window, so when I wake up, the first thing I see is a field of flowers. Cool or what?

And now that it's all nice and springy, I get to go home! Cue happy dance. Home to the place where it is warm, and there are snuggly pets, and no homework for months. Unfortunately, home requires packing. So that's what I'm doing now. Packing. And then I get to go finish my last homework assignment, and say bye to the single friend I have up here, then it's off to the 14 hour road trip with my dad. I really can't wait. All this packing and studying is making me really tired.

I have a ton of plans for what to do over the summer. I'm gonna get a job, for one thing. There's this nice tea shop/cafe that I'm looking at. It seems fun. I'm also going to get a shop on Etsy and start selling some jewelries for extra money. And I'm going to play Rift! And I'm going to write stories! But right now, I just want to sleep. The first thing I do when I get back is grab the nearest cat, hug it against its will, and possibly use it as a pillow for a very long nap. I could try to do this with Kuma, but a 120 pound dog is slightly less portable than a 5-10 pound cat. I am aware that they have sharp parts, but frankly I'm too tired right now to care. Maybe I'll be lucky and my parents will have gotten SoftPaws or something.

Dear Teachers,

In case you ever wondered why I have issues with turning in the outlines for my essays, it is because they look like this:

That is all.

Update #3

-To start things off with, SNOW!!!

As you can see by the crappy photo I took out of my window, it's been snowing since last night and now the world is all happy and white.

-I ordered my first pizza today (big milestone, I know). Medium cheese pizza with bacon. Essentially, a bacon pizza. The bacon pizza was a half hour late, which made me a little annoyed at first, but then super happy because I didn't have to pay for it! :D

Three happiest words ever?

Free. Bacon. Pizza.

-I will start a game of Vampire: The Requiem with some friends I met through NaNoWriMo. My creepy qualities now have an outlet. Be afraid.

-After a little bit of deliberation with the other officers of my guild, we have decided that I am now one of two leaders of the group we have on WoW. I have responsibilities now. Fear them.

-If I don't finish four design projects by Tuesday, I fail the course. But no pressure, right? Right?!

-Thanksgiving break was fun. I sat back, and relaxed, and spent quality time with the pets. I came home with some new nail polish and lots of cat hair because that likes to stick to my wool coat. It was nice to not work for a week.

-I dropped my drawing class because I really couldn't handle it anymore. The professor is like the white version of Morpheus from The Matrix, and as cool as that sounds, it isn't. I'd have my brain turned upside down at 9 in the morning and then a half hour after the class ended, I'd walk into yet another class still confused. I'm under too much pressure for that. Also, I don't think I'm really into drawing anyway, I didn't really need those extra 3 credits, and it was just an extra class worth of homework I had to do. So no more drawing.

-I failed at NaNoWriMo, but I knew I would. I have too much homework to devote any time to writing a novel. Still, I'm glad that I at least tried.

-Did I mention it snowed?

NaNo!

It's November again, and you know what that means! My hopes and dreams of writing a novel have risen again, despite failures too numerous to count and the pile of homework I'm drowning in. Last year, I only lasted five days but still got 10k words written. This year I'm starting from scratch with an idea I never really entertained before.

The idea?

There were some elves who were at war with some other people, and they were all pretty and lived in an enchanted forest. Some random person decided to curse said elves and Voila! The Drow were born!

Now, this year is going to be a little bit different than last year. Rather than deleting things I got wrong, I'm going to jump a line or two and rewrite them. Why? To show the process of writing and what goes through my head while I'm doing these things. Because honestly, as long as I've been writing stuff, I still don't know what I'm thinking.

Anyway, I doubt that I'll win this year, but at least it'll be entertaining! Wish me luck!

Edit: Changed my mind! Instead of elves, I'm going to write about another idea I had forever ago, but never did anything with. Should still be fun. Also, I'm adding in a little word count widget so you can see how far I am. :D

Update on the Make Up Addiction

Remember how I said I'd never want another lipstick after Cherries in the Snow? I lied. I have since bought Wild Orchid and Really Red. They're both Revlons, though, so I guess I sort of stayed on track. Maybe.

Wild Orchid is a bright fuchsia pearl, which means that not only is it seriously bright pink, it also has an iridescent flash of purple/blue. Is that awesome or what?

Really Red is a matte, which means not shiny. Remember how awesome I said I looked in red lipstick? Multiply that by 10 for mattes.

I've also gotten four nail polishes: Orly Lunar Eclipse, OPI Catch Me in Your Net, some sparkly red from Walmart that's nice to look at but impossible to apply, and a tiny pink Color Club that I can't remember the name of. I'm also running out of the only topcoat I have that doesn't make my Cherries in the Snow puff up with bubbles. I cries a sad cry.

On another note, my birthday's on monday! Whoo! I'll be turning 19, I'm pretty sure I'll be getting a coat for my birthday (which will be awesome since New York is really cold), but the rest of my wishlist consists of nail polish. No computer games. Nail polish.

I'm not entirely sure how that makes me feel. >.>

Disobedient Neurons

For any who might be wondering...

-NO, I haven't done my laundry yet. Bite me.

-YES, I am almost entirely out of food, but I'm sure I can survive on pancakes and oatmeal. I will find a way to the grocery store eventually.

-NO, I haven't been very social lately. Wanna know why? I'm not social!

-Also, I have not received my textbook in the mail, no I don't know which mailbox is mine yet, that extra money I spent was on nail polish, and the coat I like is this one but I'm still open to suggestions.

Rawr.

And the reasons for most of these? My brain's on vacation. I've sunken into this odd mindset of being capable of doing one responsible thing per day. For example: I wrote out a daily schedule for my homework. I told myself that I would stick to this and I'm going to be a responsible little nerd and get all of my late work done so that I can actually focus on the homework that's due this week. And then I was all warm and glowy from this responsible making of the schedule, and my brain decided that was enough for the day.

Or like yesterday, I sat down to do my design homework. I put in my headphones to keep me focused (and then proceeded to watch old Stargate SG-1 episodes for a couple hours), then got out my art supplies and cut paper to the right size for my project. And I was like, "The paper is the right size now! Woohoo!" And my brain was like, "Yeah, I'm done."

So it took a coffee break. Until this morning.

If anybody still reads this blog and knows anything about getting my neurons to function against their will, please help?

P.S. You know that design project? It's due today. Ha ha haaa....*facepalm*